Saturday, April 7, 2012


Sometimes I wonder why do i like shady places. A room with loads of smoke, poor lighting, abused butts lying ungracefully on the floor, blood, sickening smell of alcohol, dirt, cloths lying all over the place, few books with coffee marks, torn pages, pens with leaking ink, broken windows, tattered doors, air smelling of danger, ruthlessness, pity, sweat. A room where none of those coming from the worthy families would like to belong to. A room which speaks of long nights of indulgence in unlawful orgy, which screams of animal nature of the human behavior without the protection of its cape of righteousness. Some place where I would be really embarrassed to be, if somebody who knew me would get to know about it. But same place where I would feel alive with the sense of freedom of being, if I were alone.
Each one of us crave to do something "WRONG". Doing something against the law of society / constitution gives us a mental kick. We all.. no.. let me not include all of you to make my sins acceptable. I, yes I have this inherent desire to do shameful things, like to be the part of a orgy, to break traffic rules, to live the life of power, to kill someone. Why do i want to do that? Well, now there be those who would say these is something wrong in my head and i better consult a psychiatrist, I would respectfully try to enlighten them with the fact that you are an idiot of the highest order. And there will be others who would say that I want to do this because being "negative", in their language, is the easiest thing to do; to you my dear friend i would like to talk about the concept of gravity. Gravity tries to bring an object to the state of stability. It is the law of nature. So if I want to do something, if I am pulled towards something won't even that be the law of nature? That is my state of stability.
The ancients have worked over centuries to come up with the laws of society. Are they nuts, is that what I want to imply? Not at all my dear friend, ancients where very clever people. Cleverer than you and me at least. They knew that the future generations are gonna be confused because we would lack purpose. We are dumped with so much information that the real purpose of our existence is lost under the heaps of black ink. So, for those of us who are not able to figure out what to do, they gave us a set of rules to live by. A life code. It was something to refer to in case we are stuck somewhere in our path. A hint in a HOG. But they failed to realize that instead of referring to it as a direction, we would stop thinking altogether and accepted it as the life map itself. How would they have known that their bright children would become so lazy that they would prefer not to think but to follow what ever is been told to them. Because thinking my friend is certainly a herculean of a task.
When species on this earth wer born, all of them where given a definite nature. A dog is loyal, fox is cunning and humans can think. Humans meant to explore what other natures could be. They were given the virtue to be different. But we preferred straight lines, something which is easy to follow. Something that puts less stress on our brain. But we preferred to be like cattle. We agreed to be shepherd by a Shepherd.
Trust me we don't need to work on robots, because the yield of human breed that we have today isn't that what we are trying to achieve through robots any ways? We have a huge army of human machines who work without thinking, eat without thinking, compete without thinking because what they are going to choose is predefined by the marketeers. What they are going to learn is already worked upon by the big corporate. Who is going to live is already decided by the politicians. How you are going to live, what you are going to do is already been written. Yes, destiny exists for sure, no doubts about that. We are over flooded with entertainment, so much so that we don't have even a moment to think. They have already put a ban on our thinking. Who are these they anyways? It's us, you and me. We are blind generation. Who can't see the beauty of flowing water, who can't feel the warmth of snowflakes, who can't think the symphony of Beethovan. And just because I can't do any of that, I would tag the person who could do this, a stupid/ an outcast.
Yes, I like dark places with dirt, grit, disrespect, felony because there i see free will. Yes, it's dark. But it is some place where people are doing what they want to, they are not a part of propaganda. But, when I think deeper, I see even my darkness is getting corrupted now.